Showing posts with label dreams. Show all posts
Showing posts with label dreams. Show all posts

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

The hero I shall never be - 1

Food is the language I speak. To myself and to the world. To everyone I love. It's the only language I can speak, in fact.
The passion for cooking does not reside in my heart. It runs with my blood, supplying life force to all my components.
How can I explain what cooking means to me? The magic that manifests in my kitchen when aromas flirt with one another, dancing away into a state of coexistence. The climax that concludes the entire drama of flavors, hues and tastes. As a child I'd always wonder where I'd find my salvation - in my cooking or in the smiles of those served.
Yes, I have inherited a large part of the passion. My ancestors have run the most famous restaurant in my hill city. I never needed to join a culinary school; I graduated at my own home at a young age. But I thank god, my parents never let me easy on education. I wonder what I would be today had I not spent my formative adult years in Delhi. What would have I become had I not chosen to do my final thesis on food safety? I would have known so much less about the poison lingering in our food produce and manufactured products. I wouldn't have spent sleepless nights trying to patch up the divinity of food with the toxicity of food. I wouldn't have met Mrs Das whose NGO showed me the way as I travelled across the country strengthening my understanding of the problem and my conviction for finding a solution.
That I spent the following years meeting people as passionate as myself was something just meant to be. That I did not end up as a chef at my beloved family restaurant has to be a fortunate accident. As it all granted my lust for food so much more nobility. I could pursue one of the best courses in agriculture management. And I could gather unprecedented exposure working with one of the largest food trading firms in the world.
Within the next few years, I had developed a deep longing to free food from the blot it had acquired on its purity. It had to become beautiful again. I wanted to clear its conscience. And I knew it was an endless task.
My efforts on reviving organic farming methods in my hills and on using harmless technology for food storage would have been futile had I not received the support and love of my community. I was the child of a restaurant that, in the words of my people, was "a pride of the holy hills". Had I been a nobody to them, would my requests be considered? I am not so sure.
My love for food, as you can sense, will never die. But so hasn't my desire for change. A few hills have been conquered, yet the worlds beyond them await a rescue.

There is something about the magic that manifests in my kitchen when aromas flirt with one another, dancing away into a state of coexistence. And climax that concludes the entire drama of flavors, hues and tastes.
I have finally found my salvation - in reviving the divinity of food.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

An Ordeal

"Long time no see", said a smiling face.
Emerged out of nowhere it was he, right in front of me.
What was he even doing here - in my world, in my life that he had ruthlessly abandoned long back??
Did he want to destroy all that I had built over the years? Did he want my life to be miserable again? The innocence and genuineness in his eyes did not hint so.
And why the hell do you think we should see each other at all??, I stared at him tacitly. I bet he would have recognized that question in my eyes - he must have observed that a zillion times before.

Because there is no reason why we shouldn't, he beamed again, forcing me to feel embarrassed.

I somehow managed to escape his presence. Turning to my friends, I began cracking jokes and having panipuris. That's what I had come to the fair for. For a few minutes I had forgotten about that encounter completely. But then I noticed him scrutinizing me as our paths crossed yet again. I wanted to run away from that moment. It was so unreal, so undesirable. I had no idea why I felt so distinctly insecure and disturbed in his presence. I kept wondering. For what seemed like hours. Until I sensed a soft peck on my cheeks and inhaled a well-known, comforting essence. And in a blink appeared my sweetheart with the smile that accessorizes my life. I got up and buried my face in his chest, hiding the small tear of guilt that rolled down my eye. I held him tight, wanting to live that moment - One that was so real, so desirable.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Returning to dreams...



In my lust , in my prayers
You have lasted for years

Like the reminiscence of red roses
In the leaves of an old journal

You have remained untouched, my love
In the folds of my heart

It's yet another start

It's time for the dried out flowers
to blossom once again

It's time for my thirst
To be quenched by the rain

Yes, I wanna wake up from the pain of reality
Take me to the dreams, take me in your spell

Replenish my fuel

Save my life, darling, let me live a few more days
With the memories of yet another dream!