Melody

From the corner of my eye
Falls a wet shapeless being
Away from the sights of the world beyond
Unknown, Unheard, Unseen
My heart withers today
As I hear that old melody again
The one that had disappeared
in the dance of our first rain
I can't believe fall's already here
And it looks like it's here to remain
As the world swears by my bright hues
I silently dry up inside
I dance in pain for one more time
As I play that old melody again

An Ordeal

"Long time no see", said a smiling face.
Emerged out of nowhere it was he, right in front of me.
What was he even doing here - in my world, in my life that he had ruthlessly abandoned long back??
Did he want to destroy all that I had built over the years? Did he want my life to be miserable again? The innocence and genuineness in his eyes did not hint so.
And why the hell do you think we should see each other at all??, I stared at him tacitly. I bet he would have recognized that question in my eyes - he must have observed that a zillion times before.

Because there is no reason why we shouldn't, he beamed again, forcing me to feel embarrassed.

I somehow managed to escape his presence. Turning to my friends, I began cracking jokes and having panipuris. That's what I had come to the fair for. For a few minutes I had forgotten about that encounter completely. But then I noticed him scrutinizing me as our paths crossed yet again. I wanted to run away from that moment. It was so unreal, so undesirable. I had no idea why I felt so distinctly insecure and disturbed in his presence. I kept wondering. For what seemed like hours. Until I sensed a soft peck on my cheeks and inhaled a well-known, comforting essence. And in a blink appeared my sweetheart with the smile that accessorizes my life. I got up and buried my face in his chest, hiding the small tear of guilt that rolled down my eye. I held him tight, wanting to live that moment - One that was so real, so desirable.

The Puzzle

Was it an illusion, really? What I thought, what I felt for you. The spark in your eyes that mesmerized me for years. Was it only a reflection of the radiance I directed at you??

My observation tells me that I cannot associate any pleasant memories with the relationships that have gone bad. Like others, I cannot casually miss friends who I've stopped talking to. There's always either regret or blame attached. So I generally prefer not to think, not to miss at all. And the good memories are associated with the people I'm still in touch with, in love with. But you are a different case all together, you know. You , somehow, do not fit my above mentioned philosophy. You linger unattended, almost like an outlier.

I cannot feel guilty for what I felt for you. Neither can my heart condemn that spontaneous fervor, nor can my mind challenge my fall for the beautiful person I saw in you. And obviously, you cannot be accused for the glint that I observed in your eyes. I, hence, possess no hard feelings for you.

On the other hand, time and your coldness has killed all traces of any emotional attraction I ever had for you. It's purely an intellectual inclination now. Yes, you have reduced to a question for me. Quite a dreadful one though. Dreadful not because I fear that it can harm me in any way. But because I fear that it would persist. Like the dark spots created by the teenage acne. Like the scars attained from childhood accidents. I fear that this puzzle would continue to affect my evolving philosophy.

The mystery

Your mind
And the thoughts concealed within
Are for me the biggest mystery
Not that the truth will change my life
Nor will it break my heart
I only wish to lift the veil
I only fancy a victory
Over your hidden emotions
Not that I love you
Nor would I ever do
I only wish to liberate myself
I only want to free you
From the burden of secracy...