The moment

Pain had always been a part of me. But now I could see solace in my sorrow. Right after the biggest turmoil of my life had subsided. Only when I had no one left: to dream of, to smile with or to cry for.

You came to me as a cloud to the desert. But I wondered if I were hallucinating. I feared if you were only a fragment of my imagination; if you would fade away with time like the previous dreams. But unlike ever before, I blurted everything in front of you. My pain, my anxiety, my fears and my hope. You listened to all that silently.
And I cried days for losing my self-control. I cried for having become so vulnerable and unreasonable before someone as insensitive as you seemed to be.
But that was the last wave of pain in my life. Minutes before leaving the city, you eased out everything. Your eyes, so deep, just held me captive and spellbound. I couldn't breathe, let alone move, for a long while. Probably that was the first time someone looked at me with such intensity. You words still echo in my mind (as clear as the dialogues of my childhood favorite DDLJ).

You remember I told you I have a crush on someone.
It's you.

And the train, almost melodramatically, entered the scene whistling, putting a pause to the moment that had barely started.

If you ask me one incident that I would remember for eternity, it would be this one for sure. The moment that stole all my insecurity. Forever.